Grand Plan

14Dec09

My flatmate has a grand plan. She sort of knows how her career will look and now I’m a bit intimidated. I’m still pretty sure I want to be a doctor which is a start but I feel a bit odd as a medic when I say that I’m very much up for letting my personal life guide me.

Ideally I would like to live in community in a big city. I’d like to share life with people in a big noisy way. I want to live with people that love me. I want to commit to one relationship. I want to cook massive pots of food for the people I live with and I never want life to get too quiet.

I love medicine. I want to be a doctor but not the scary over-achieving kind (very few of them seem to still have a soul). I want to be the best doctor I can be to every patient I ever see. That’s a big job. I won’t have time to do much more than that. I don’t want to be a jet setting person. I don’t want to wear a suit.

I just want to still be me in 20 years time… not to lose myself in it all. To do things that are good for the soul. I don’t know whether to say it but I’d be happy to be average. Erm… This is new ground for me…